I’ve been feeling a lot of Mars energy for the past couple of days… Mars is a fiery energy that fuels courage and motivates us to take action. It can also get us fired up in ways that can create conflict (think Mars, the Roman “God of War”).
Lord knows there’s enough friggin’ conflict in our world right now so the last thing I want to do is add fuel to that fire.
But I must admit that while I’ve been able to stay above the fray for the most part and not engage in battles of who’s right and who’s wrong, yesterday I felt tempted to jump right into the middle of the fight and put up my dukes.
I’m grateful for my spiritual sisters and my beliefs and spiritual practices that supported me to choose NOT to dive into the battle but rather to go within to find my peace and empowerment.
First, I decided to consult my favorite oracle, the Mother Mary deck by Alana Fairchild. I picked up the cards and began pacing around my house like a caged lion. I was probably growling, too! As I paced, agitated by my anger, I shuffled the deck again and again. In my mind I reached out to Mother Mary for guidance.
What came up from the oracle was Our Lady of Creative Choice:
“…You have the power of heaven within you. You don’t need to control life, beloved, but you can choose whether you dance with life responsively, paying atention to what is happening for you in the moment… You can then make a choice about how you wish to respond. Your responses to your life circumstances are your choices to make, and a source of great power within… You just need to remember to choose creatively.”
I was still too rattled to be completely calmed and comforted by this message but I did hear Her saying that somehow I’ve got power within this upsetting situation… the power of creative choice.
Then I did some deep inquiry in my journal and that led to a spontaneous visualization through which I received support from St. Germain and the Violet Flame. I immersed myself in the Violet Flame and asked for help to transmute my fear into love… to transmute the fears that are at the root of my anger and that trigger my desire to fight.
I saw myself standing strong in a warrior stance with a blue sword. I sensed the presence of Archangel Michael. Out of the sword came the Violet Flame to transmute the fear that’s “out there” in the world… the collective fear that is at the root of so much anger, conflict, aggression, and violence.
It’s not important to share with you what triggered me or what I was angry about.
What’s important is that I’ve found what’s mine to do, right now. My job is to be a transmuter of fear, both within and without.
Deep bow of gratitude to all of my spiritual helpers both embodied and unseen.
(Written 9/14/2021)